Sometimes it’s hard to tell
Whether you’re strong,
Or too weak.
Sometimes people say the meanest things..
And you have to smile.
Coz you can’t respond to every dumb thing someone says.
And also you can’t waste your energy on something that isn’t worth it.
But is that being strong?
Coz when alone,
You think about it.
Analyzing why they said that.
Maybe it was true. Maybe you are like that.
Maybe you need to work on it.
Is that okay?
I guess so. It shows you’re someone with emotions. Someone who thinks. Who puts herself to trial when wrong. Someone who wants to accept her mistakes. And change. And when not wrong, someone who can brush it off.
And that’s a good thing.
But what if…
Instead of thinking and moving on
You stand right there.
Beating yourself up for what someone who doesn’t matter said!
What if people think you’re rude coz you answer them back when you know you weren’t at fault.
What if people think you’re happy coz you never let anyone’s crap get to you.
What if people think you’re strong… coz you don’t let others bring you down.
But inside….
You’re almost broken.
About to cry, at all times.
Too tired to defend yourself or clarify. Or even feel guilty and apologize.
What if you constantly wish for someone to defend you or take the hits for you.
But maybe that’s normal too?
Normal to human nature.
Maybe what matters is how you handle it.
Every day. A struggle. Constant.
Maybe what matters is you can keep yourself sane and remain a good person without letting those people’s behavior get to you.
But sometimes,
It’s just hard.
candidlearner 